Beauty in the Hard

Do you ever find yourself using the excuse that you are just so busy. Sometimes I hear myself use that word and I seriously want to smack myself. I think we as a society often use it too fluidly and wonder why our friends don’t often reach out. We wonder why someone didn’t reach out when they needed help. We wonder why we weren’t invited to the thing we felt so left out from. You know, this is just me speaking from deep thought and wondering how many people I have scared away or made feel like a burden because I was so “busy”. Who did I give that answer to when they were hoping that I had a moment of time in my schedule to visit with them? Who have I told that to who was hoping to make a connection with me but my response made them feel like they were not important enough to find a moment of connection with. Busy…. ugh we really need another word.

I wish that we (I) would be more willing to be less busy and more present. Present in doing things with my family. Present in spending time with those I love. Present in doing things that I want to do & less trying to people please and do things in hopes of not offending or whatever reason I may have that’s just not necessarily worth my time. We’re a lonely busy culture. Lonely but surrounded by people and our friends list is long. Maybe our texts and our messages are sent often, but are we really making true connections. I think sometimes the exhaustion comes from filling my mind with the world. I just don’t believe that the Lord intended us to know every thing going on everywhere. We have information overload constantly. We are always thinking, always comparing, always trying to keep up. I just wish I had the answer, or answer better than busy. That’s going to be my new goal. Maybe I will find a better answer, maybe I will even keep it real and not use a blanket answer to cover the heaviness and exhaustion I feel in my soul. Maybe just maybe I will find a better answer & be real with what I am facing. Is it busyness, or is it heaviness? Is it busyness, or is it trying to make everyone else around me happy? Am I really busy, or can I spare a few minutes of a deep felt conversation with someone who wants to get to know me. Whatever it is, I hope it’s better than “busy”.

Matthew 11:28-29: “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls”

Friend I pray that you will find the rest that comforts your soul. That you would find the energy to do what God calls upon you and that you would find a new word to represent you as an amazing daughter of Christ. I pray that you find the beauty in the hard.

Be Blessed,

Brittany